As always, I bring my mommy bag of tricks to entertain the boys. For Noah, it's books and markers and drawing paper and Hero Factory creations. For Nick, it's a laptop and a horde of Thomas videos.
We claim our seats--the ones right by the outlet so that the laptop stays juiced--and settle in for a long summer's wait.
While Noah plays with his heroes and Nick watches Thomas Sing-a-long Songs, a mother and her two sons step in the door. The mother takes a seat across the waiting room from us but her older son, wearing crooked glasses and shaggy blonde hair, notices Nick's video playing and is absolutely mesmerized. He wanders over to us and his younger brother soon follows. The mother, nervous, immediately calls out to her sons to come sit with her, but they don't seem to hear.
The boys sit down on the floor next to Nick's stroller and the older boy, struggling to enunciate the words but eager to voice them, begins peppering me with questions. What is he watching? Why is there smoke coming out of the train? Why is he in a stroller? Why is that train sad? His younger brother joins in with a few questions of his own. What is his name? Can you get Club Penguin on that? What is he doing with his hands?
Their mother stands nearby in the watchful hover-stance I know so well, at the ready for whatever may come. It is the Autism Stance, the one all of us autism moms have perfected. We never know what might happen, so we stand prepared for everything.
As the boys chat with Noah and me, we learn that the older boy is 14 and the younger is 5. The older boy's autism is more pronounced (his speech is at about the level of a typical four year old), but the younger boy has some severe sensory sensitivities; when his brother lightly touches his stomach, he shrieks as if he's been stabbed. His mother scoops in and promptly redirects him.
I know I've complained about children in waiting rooms before, but these children absolutely delighted me. I loved their inquisitiveness, their eagerness.
The mother and her boys are ready to leave before my after-shot wait is over. As she shepherds them toward the door, she stops and turns to me. "Thank you for being so nice to them," she says with eyes that reflect both gratefulness and tears.
"Of course!" I respond, and wave an enthusiastic goodbye to the boys.
As the glass door close behind them, I realize that she probably had no clue that I was another mother who lived the Autism Stance. I mean, Nick was so engaged in his video and Noah was so engaged in his toys that they didn't seem very autistic today. The boys themselves may have noticed Nick's autism (asking what he was doing with his hands when he was stimming), but the mother was so focused on her children that I don't think she saw it.
If she'd been there last week as we sat in the waiting room, she would've seen the autism. I mean, the woman sitting right next to me that day did, and she made a loud production of moving herself and her daughter far away to the other side of the waiting room when the autism seeped out.
That's why the mother of those boys had tears in her eyes. She'd undoubtedly experienced 14 years of people moving away from her children, as if their autism was a communicable leprosy. But here was this one person today being nice to her kids, sharing her son's DVD and smiling as she answered their questions . . . and my eyes filled with the tears that her eyes held when she left the office.
